Oh summer! How I love thee! I’m just soaking it all in this year. The sun. The rain. The toddler hilarity. The sweet, old doggy snuggles. The sunscreen smells. The BBQ tastes. ALL of it. And it means I’m naturally shifting my energy and rhythm to focus only on what’s true for me. I don’t know when it started, but safe to say in the last two years I’ve put myself on a journey to turn inward and learn as much as I can about myself. My limits, my actual dreams and desires, my capacity to create, love, share and grow. In the last couple weeks, more than one person has said to me “Erin, you’ve changed. You glow. You smile more.”
To which, I smile and say ‘thank you’. It’s true. I have changed. I am glowing. And I do smile more. And it has nothing to do (directly) with new face cream or home decor. Honestly guys, I’ve become a better student of life lately. At some point in 2016, I just got fed up. I got fed up with the ‘have-tos’, the built in guilt of being a woman in this world, the expectations (whether intended or unintended), the tacit limitations we place on ourselves and our growth. I just got sick of the stories I’d been telling myself.
I stepped out. And guys, looking back – that was the best friggin decision I ever made. It’s really hard to explain how living mindfully has changed my life. But the results sorta speak for themselves.
Much of my journey is reflected here on the blog – or at least the fruits of that journey. I mean, I don’t think I’d ever in my life have imagined that we could have completed both a bathroom renovation AND a playroom renovation in five months time if I hadn’t started learning about alignment, mindful energy and intention.
What has been going on behind the scenes (and sometimes on IG Stories) has been an education of Erin. I spend almost every free moment diving deeper into books, podcasts, whatever I can get my hands on that will help me open up more to the possibilities of life, release resistance and tension and just be. It sounds weird, but it’s like I’m reconnecting with who I always believed I was. I literally get butterflies now when I sit down with a book that I just know is going to unlock more magic in me. I have found this whole new capacity for joy.
You might not know this about me, but I have an advanced degree in Philosophy – yes PHILOSOPHY. I spent years of my life devoted to understanding things like the conscious and subconscious mind, the concept of personal identity, pondering the quantum mechanics (yes the actual physics) of imaginary numbers and free will. I wrote and published a dissertation on the reconciliation of human suffering. In retrospect, it was my young logical and rational mind’s way of grappling with my Uncle’s diagnosis with a fatal brain tumour.
I’m talking some serious heady shit, y’all.
And then – well, the world happened. I was young and fell into the trap of ‘you’ve had your fun, now go get a real job and be a real person.’ But there was always this voice inside of me. Something pulling me back to being that student of life. Something telling me I had more inside than I was letting on.
That I could be the sole determining factor in my own success and growth.
In the last two years, since my “re-education” began, I’ve built a six-figure business without knowing a thing about business. (< I know, it baffles and excites me too!), I’ve renovated rooms, worked with my dream partners, spoken on stage and traveled to places I never imagined I’d travel.
All because I committed to drowning out the voices of expectation, following my gut and leaning into being mindful as often as possible.
And you know what? Sure, my blog is called DIY Passion. But it’s MY BLOG. An entity that I’ve spent years nurturing as a reflection of me. So I hope you don’t mind that I start writing about this specific journey. I so want to share it with you all. Not because I want to brag – but because if I’ve learned anything, it’s that anyone can change their lives. ANYONE. And that we are literally capable of creating whatever it is we want. We just have to be bold enough to take that step. Breathe in. And accept that a joyful life is already waiting for us.
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